4 - 10 - 10 I know that I haven't added new posts to this blog, since I am working backwards from the Journal that I always kept and eventually I will catch-up. Thank you for your patience or better yet, a book would be ideal.

6 - 23 - 95 Allen, 38 yrs. old, lived on East 57th St., in his Aunt's co-op and pays rent of $800 a month. He gave me his calling card, which said Mr. Goodbar, bartending, which he does part-time. He wanted some head shots, along with some burlesk photos, in a G-string. He seemed to be a bit speedy and a little crazy-like. Good-looking guy, he showed me head shots of himself when he was 21 yrs. old. Seemed confused about what to do career-wise and no steady girlfriend. He kept going off in different tangents when talking with me. Wanted all subtle photos, nothing sexual.

7 - 3 - 95 Eric, Puerto Rican, 24 yrs. of age, contact me again, to do more photos of him. I did some soft-to-erection photos of him. He mentioned that his girlfriend was away for the week and always had the fantasy of having sex with an older women and wanted to get off this subject, when he told me that I had a pretty face. Did the photos and left.

7 - 12 - 95 Dave, married, lives in White Plains and drove into the city and picked me up in front of my apt. and then we drove to Rosemary's apt. He was interested in exploring some light S/M with her, while I photographed it all. He was heavy and talked about his 2nd marriage to his wife who he said was conservative. He did not tell his wife that he was doing the photo shoot.

7 - 22 - 95 Bob J. again and photographed him while he masturbated and when he put his former girlfriend on his head and over his face. This is Bob's way about him and always polite.

7 - 25 - 95 Chris, 32 yrs. of age and live on the upper East Side. He resembled Sylvester Stallone, very muscular and always wanted to document himself in the nude. He mentioned to me that he was shy and would never go to a nude beach. Very polite and flexed his muscles for me.

7 - 30 - 95 Monte, 32 yrs. of age, black and was photographed before, told me he got jobs dancing from the photos that I took of him before and enjoys the shoots. He has a large penis, very mannerly, polite and drove me back home into the city from his Hackensack, NJ apt.

8 - 5 - 95 Jeff, 27 yrs. of age, white from Rye, NY. Wanted to do a shoot to get photos, so he could try to be a dancer, make extra money doing parties. I thought he didn't look the type, since he was short, but nice guy and a little naive. Lived with a roommate, who he didn't want to know was doing a nude shoot.

8 - 8 - 95 Jonathan, 32 yrs. of age, short, married for 6 yrs, has 2 kids and told me his wife was in Japan, lived on the upper East side and hasn't had sex in two months. Kept saying that doing this shoot was unique. He seemed to be a little uptight, but was appreciative of the shoot. Very polite and told me he worked in a Park Avenue Cafe as a manager. Soft-spoken and submissive.

5 - 26 - 95 Bob J., his birthday was yesterday and went to Cirque De Soil with eight other people from his family. He turned 32 yrs. of age and recently broke up with his girlfriend. I have photographed him three times before and always pays for my cab from my midtown apartment to his place in the West Village. He is the obsessed masturbater, always wants to do and told me he can ejaculate, ten times in a day. Seems to be a rich guy, drinks beer all day, lives in an expensive place, but is a nice guy, still trying to find himself and doesn't want to work for his father's company.

6 - 17 - 95 Frank, who I photographed before wanted to be photographed with a female. I asked Rosemary, if she was interested in being nude and photographed with him and she agreed. She is into being a dominatrix and she spanked him and then I photographed them together.

4 - 23 - 95 Frank, 36 yrs. of age, looks much younger, single, lives in Staten Island and did the shoot in The Senton Hotel on West 27th St. He told me that last time he had sex with a women was in January, when he was in Las Vegas and paid a hooker $300 and often pays hookers in NYC $125, wants to get into doing porn, so he can get laid. He's short and not good-looking and mentioned that he did not like fake breasts on women. Masturbated during the shoot.

5 - 7 - 95 Bob, I photographed him twice before and told me that he was married when he was younger. Has a girlfriend now and I asked him, if he was in love and he replied, "in lust".

5 - 20 - 95 Bob, 36 yrs. age, young-looking, living in Kings Park, Long Island. I took the LI railroad which took 1 1/2 hrs. to get there and arrived in his studio apt., once he picked me up at the train station. He was doing the photo shoot for the experience and also did some video on him while he was in the shower. He didn't have a girlfriend and was currently unemployed. He had a bottle of white wine and played some light music, while he masturbated during the shoot.
He drove me back into the city after his shoot.

4 - 1 - 95 Eric, who I photographed before, this time in his own apartment and he wanted his photos to be more sexual. He started complimenting me, but soon switched the conversation over to him, mentioning how the shoot, the role-reversal is about him. I wrapped-up the shoot, usually sooner than I do, since he was focusing more on me than on the shoot of himself.

4 - 2 - 95 Jonathan, Jewish, 26 yrs. of age, a Cornell University graduate and a lawyer. He wanted to do the shoot to get over a sexual event that happened to him, since he has been in therapy for 4 years, since his mother made sexual advances to him. He said he has no girlfriend and was shy, at the start of the shoot and then said he was comfortable about me photographing him. He was enjoying masturbating, while I did stronger photos of him.

4 - 2 - 95 Photographed Bob J. again on Horatio St. in the West Village. He kept porn videos playing on the TV during the shoot and mentioned that he ejaculated 4 times today and masturbates a lot. He has the typical problems with his live-in girlfriend, always arguing. In his 30's and said that he likes Vanessa Del Rio, the porn star from the 80's a lot and would love to have sex with her. That's Bob J., indeed.

4 - 15 - 95 Peter, a rock writer, blond, tall and 32 yrs. of age, wasp, good looks, single and said he has a girlfriend in Los Angeles. He never had been photographed by a female in the nude, so wanted to have the experience and liked the fact that he didn't know what to expect. Wanted me to direct the entire photo shoot, but did have two suggestions for his photos. He wanted a few photos of himself with his underwear on and with an erection and with his pajama bottoms on. He got those photos, in addition to my suggestions, which he liked a lot. Mentioned that he was into porn and liked when I got wrist-straps that I tied around his wrists and blind-folded him. Said he enjoyed the shoot, much better than he thought and how excited he felt. I thought he was sensitive and sexy with his feelings. I loved the nice available light in his apt. and the shadows that came thru the window-panes. Good shoot, resulting in good photos, hot.

2 - 25 - 95 Lewis, 26 yrs. of age, Puerto Rican, said he has never been photographed by a woman in the nude. Has a female roommate who is 32 yrs. of age and the both sleep in the same bed.
He's very religious, had lots of pictures of Christ on his walls and a small alter with a Bible on it in the living room where he prays and reads about religions. Spiritual, burning intense with New Age music playing. Was interested in erotic photos, none sexual, unless he was to be photographed with a woman. Very polite, a nice-looking guy. Worked in a 14th St. office, 6 years at his job and started as a messenger.

2- 25 - 95 Went to Lewis S. who lives on East 51st St. in the evening at 8:00 pm. I have photographed him before. Thought he looked better than before and has cut his long hair, making him look more mature. Currently, has a girlfriend of 3 yrs. who lives in London. I did some of my "Me and Men" photos with him, putting a part of myself in the photograph with him. A very polite, respectful, shy-like guy, sometimes very reserved. I am sure I will photograph him again, when he contacts me, since he lives nearby.

3 - 4 - 95 Photographed Bob again, who lives on West 80th St. He said he was watching porn, before my arrival and I mentioned that if he wanted to watch it, while I photographed him that it was cool with me and he did. He wanted all sexual photographs of himself this time, which meant stronger photos, including erections. He wore a cock ring, so he would be able to keep an erection longer and ejaculated that reached across the room, which he mentioned was his
speciality to do. Nice guy, older guy, graying at the temples, nice-looking.

2 - 17 - 95 - Went to photograph Keith at his room in the Charter Club on West 45th St., divorced, lives with a girlfriend and never been photographed by a female in the nude, so wanted to do. In his 40's, owns a computer company and wanted to document the way he looks now and then wants to do another shoot, when he loses some weight. Works out at The Vertical Club, three times a week. Lives in NYC half the week and in Oregon the other half. He masturbated towards the end of the shoot. Said he found the photo shoot to be an interesting experience and complimented me on photographing male nudes. He requested a photo shoot of him and his girl-
friend together, her in sexy lingerie, the next times he comes to the city. He asked me "what does your husband think about you photographing male nudes?". I replied, he's known about my lifetime passion of photographing male nudes, from the time we first met and always has been supportive and never threatened by it, nor does he ask me questions, when I return home from a shoot. He trusts me and knows that their is a boundary that I would never, never cross. He
didn't say anything after my reply. Said the photo shoot was all new to him and wanted suggestions of what to do. He was extremely polite, a bit uninteresting for me, since he never had any input into the photos that he wanted. A very vanilla photo shoot, but sweet.

12 -11 - 94 Bob, 40 yrs. of age, single and works as a bartender. Contacted me and said he wanted photos of himself, before he started to workout. He had his weights around in his apartment and wanted photos with them. Then wanted photos of a more sexual nature with an erection and masturbating. The entire photo shoot he was polite and mentioned that this was all new to him. I didn't spend much time doing his photo shoot, since he ejaculated fairly quickly and I packed up my camera equipment and ended the shoot, while classical music played, along with his golf clubs in the room.

1 - 7 - 95 James, 34 yrs. of age, black guy, which I don't photograph too often and want to, single and lived downtown in a housing project. It seemed that one time he was down and out, but now is trying to get himself together. Told me he received some sort of check from the government. He was not interested in sexual photos of himself and did not even touch himself, which was nice to do subtle, erotic photos. Said he was nervous in the beginning of the shoot and then felt comfortable doing. Mentioned to me that it is not everyday that an attractive woman would be photographing him. Wanted to spend the rest of the afternoon reflecting about it, since the
experience was enjoyable on many levels. He started telling me that he had not had a girlfriend in more than a year and the last one was a prostitute and said he had to leave her.

1 - 14 - 95 Julian, white, 27 yrs. of age, single and lived with his father. He had gotten a hotel room to do the shoot in on West 27th St, The Senton Hotel. He had four tattoos on him, was slim and said that he didn't smoke or drink and always wanted to do nude modeling. My impression of him was that he could have been heavier and needed to feel more comfortable in front of the
camera. He did get an erection, but didn't ejaculate. Mentioned that he was straight and that he sees a number of women, but doesn't sleep with all of them and always uses a condom. Told me that there was a lot of unprotected sex going on. Is interested in doing pornographic videos and porn magazine modeling. Had a very Italian-look and was completely shaven in the pubic area.

1 - 28 - 95 Sharin, 25 yrs. of age and came from Egypt, 3 yrs. ago. Found him to be good-looking
and wanted the nude photos for his modeling purposes. His public area was shaven. Couldn't get an erection in the beginning of the shot, but did later on and asked me when he did "how's this?" He had a great smile, very pleasant and wanted me to select the best photos of him. Said he didn't have a current girlfriend but previously had a Jewish girlfriend, but said she was too winy for him. He moved out of his last apartment because the female landlady, who was divorced, kept sexually coming on to him.

2 - 17 - 95 Tad, 24 yrs. of age, plays the drums in a band. Told me he was submissive and wanted his wrists and ankles tied to the framework of his futon. He wanted to keep an erection for the entire shoot, but couldn't. Told me the last time he had sex with a woman was a year ago.
He was polite, but a bit strange. Said the photo shoot was better than what he thought it would be. Said he masturbated the nite before the shoot, while thinking about the shoot the next day.. He said he wanted to do the shoot for the experience of being photographed by a female. This was his first time to have this type of experience, thought it was great.